#200!

Sunday, May 31, 2009 @ 5:50 AM

#200!!! WHOOPIE! I'M SO HAPPY!
i'm posting double in a day.
as promised, i'm gonna write what i feel - everything in this post.

two school terms has passed, in fact, 20 weeks at school. TWENTY.
everything seems to pass by so quickly, in a blink of an eye, and it is gone.
i remember, just 6 months ago, on 20 Nov, i just received my PSLE results.
but it seemed like yesterday to me.
the reporting day to RGS is still vivid in my mind, i remember - how lost i was, how sad i was, how alone i was.
primary school has passed, it's the truth, and it can only remain as a wonderful memory in our hearts that can never come alive to us again.
it cannot be rewind, even if we can turn back the time, will we enjoy primary school as much as we did?
primary schooling in RVPS seems like dream to me now - a dream.
i dont feel that its real now cause i dont feel the way i felt in primary school.
no matter how much i enjoy myself in secondary school, it's not the same. and it will never be.
i miss too many things about rivervale.
the little things that i miss - being a rvps prefect, class prefect, taking attendance file everyday, nagging at 6A, mr soh, huang lao shi, PSLE, most importantly, the school itself.
these things i will never experience in secondary school.
the memory of my primary school - RVPS is bitter sweet, those sweet memories, but whenever i think of them, they will make my heart bitter and i will always feel a pang of agony.
the memories of RVPS is like a bullet lodged in my heart, the agony of missing it too much. Secondary school - my friends, 106 and teachers, helped in its extraction, but it left a scar (or rather, something sweet hidden in my heart) that secondary school can never replace.
Secondary school will never be able to replace the special place of RVPS in my heart.

It's very true that i enjoy my life in RGS for these 5 months.
but i know deep down in my heart i'm hiding my feelings - deep down inside i do feel lonely, alone, sad...
but i know that i grew to love RGS alot, and my friends, they've encouraged me, they make my life more vibrant in RGS.
and it's not true that RGS girls are arrogant, proud, or whatsoever - we're the nicest people around.
i know that ever since i made my decision not to go to DHS, i know that i will lose out alot of things and be left out, but i just opt-ed for RGS.
until now, i havent regretted my decision to go there, but maybe deep down inside i do regret it, but i'm lying to myself and trying to be strong and tell myself that i dont regret it. i have no idea, but now i'm telling you, i dont regret it.
I DONT.
i know that once we left primary school and proceeded to secondary school, it can never be the same as before. even if i had my closest friends in secondary school, it would still never be the same. that's why i opted for rgs instead of dhs.
i knew that it would still turn out to be the same.
but i do feel left out when i'm with the dunmanians, but i was very prepared for it, when i opted for RGS. but it's agony, that we are separated and isolated due to the fact of being in different schools... it's so depressing...
it's the little little things about rvps that i miss. seriously.
its just what i miss, we miss, 6A all miss, RVPS. RIVERALE PRIMARY SCHOOL.
the one and only.

okay end of my rants. :D :D :D
you can forget what my post said today if you wish.
it is just what i feel.
and anyway, i realised that KIM BUM is very CUTE - CUTIEEE! and maybe i like him compared to kim hyun joong alr. BUT THEY ARE BOTH CUTIES AND HOTTIES! whoo!

<3, CHELSEA!

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