187.
Sunday, May 17, 2009 @ 5:15 AM
[sidenote: this is my 187 post, aka 187 in PLMIT. the qianfuhao guy.
the one that always go, "baobei." haha! random.]
lately i've been pondering about weird stuff.
it's strange how people can change so easily.
and it's even stranger that they hardly realise it.
i've realised ever since i went into RGS, i change quite alot.
first of all, my chinese has become mutiliated and i cant speak fluent chinese. :/
and i realised that now my "first language" is english, and even when i speak to 6Aliens, it's such a natural thing to speak english.
english has always been my first language, but now, i use it so frequently that i sort of dump chinese at a corner, all forgotten...
maybe that's because RGS girls speak english and i'm sorta influenced?
perhaps you realised that my blog posts are getting more and more cheem in the terms of english, that's very true, and i feel weird about it.
have i really changed that much?
i have nothing else to add.
and i'm also pondering is being 'jealous' a right thing to do.
it's a natural feeling, but it causes people to harbour wrong thoughts.
i admit that i'm jealous sometimes, but i'm not that ILL with jealousy.
and how is envy related to jealousy? how is envy to a smaller extent of harm?
i thought for like quite long on that and still i start to think of my clique after that. haha. i just cant come up with an answer.
and it's cruel to say but i think i'm jealous of the clique. or envious?
do friends get jealous of each other sometimes?
my blog posts are getting really philosophical, especially ever since i started learning philosophy. i learnt to really think hard and consider about something, and there. and now i'm really thinking hard.
i'm juggling 3 blogs at a time, and i must say that it's selfish of me to spend most time on my personal blog.
oh well. there's my twins and clique blog too, but i tend to blog here always cos it's like more... personal kind of feeling that i can understand.
and i'm tired. really.
tomorrow's 2.4 km run, we're truly dead man...
i have this terrible sore throat that i just gotten today, and i'm thinking whether to pon 2.4km.
sigh, i must really pass. or else. Zzzz.
and i think we're getting back maths tomorrow. i'm truly dead! how?
---no idea.---
bye! and wish me luck.
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